December 11, 2019


Right now I am the happiest I have ever been.

Yet I am not enjoying the moment, the here and now.


That has always been my difficulty.

Running to the future.

Living in the past.

On this Quest with loads of questions.

When will it end?

This frenzied energy to find Peace.

Yet in certain moments I find the joy.

For the joy only to be killed by the “what if” or the “you need to be” or “you should be doing this” or similar thoughts.

You are familiar with all those thoughts.

Killjoy thoughts I call them.

Killjoy I call that Shadow who always wants to know it all.

But it is the unknowing, the not knowing, the doubt that is the deepest knowing.

It has always been the way for me.

My mind though is obsessed with seeing the results.

Yet even when I have the results in front of me, the mind doesn’t believe it or is bored by them.

I then chase after the next Shiny object offering respite from this Quest.

The Quest with loads of questions.

Never enjoying the moment.

Any joy being killed in that moment.

Happiness can be bitter sweet.

But this feels beyond ungrateful.

Time is very much inside our heads.

Our sense of time.

Yet I remember all those times in celebrating and living each moment, from moment to moment a sense of serenity, joy, elation and jubilation.

Golden memories etched on the brain.

Golden memories to harvest.

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Taniya Hussain qualified as a Social Worker in 1991 from Coventry University in England. She has been working on the front lines, consistently holding space for individuals and families for three decades especially, children and young people on the margins of society. Taniya studied Psycho-dynamic counselling from 1991 to 1993 at Goldsmiths College in London. Taniya met Sheikha Halima Krausen in 1992 and has been studying Islam with her ever since especially Mystical Islam, Tassawuf (Sufism) and walks on the Chisti path. Taniya really started using the power of Jungian Pyschology and Mystical Islam when she started her Online Coaching and Consultancy Business in 2018 and discovered she was a powerful healer. When she discovered Shadow Alchemy in 2019, she started developing this modality into Muslim Alchemy in 2020. She now brands herself as the Muslim Alchemist because she is constantly integrating her knowledge of the Quran and Bible with her vast Social Work experience and her extensive ability of applying Psycho-dynamic, therapeutic techniques to organisational settings, team dynamics and when working with individuals and groups. This has both Online and Offline. Taniya uses skillfully her understanding of the Shadow, that Jung constantly talked about and her Mystical Training plus her experience in inter-faith dialogue since 2003, to help individuals and groups become conscious of what they previously were unconscious of leading to rapid success in their Business, Health and Relationships. Taniya has a great skill in being able to see the blind spots in others and in untanging energetic knots (a term she uses for Shadow) to promote healing from mental and physical disease. She uses her vast expertise and skills to help her Online Clients to get rid of decades of anxiety causing insomnia, depression and suicidal thoughts and marital problems. Clients usually are healed in a short amount of time never needing to invest in Therapy again. She really is the Muslim Alchemist as she turns the shitty experience of clients into golden experiences where they manifest upgraded, wealth, health and relationships all at the same time. Taniya got married in 1995 and has three sons born in 1996, 2001 and 2003 and lives in Surrey, England and when she is not developing Muslim Alchemy, she loves to spend time with her family and write fiction stories, songs and poems. She speaks fluent English and Urdu and basic German and French and is learning Arabic and Hebrew.


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