Self-Awareness

Do you ever wake up on a Monday and think:”Is this it?”

You don’t say it out loud.

You barely even let yourself think it.
But it’s there.

Especially on Mondays.

The day you secretly resent.

Sunday already feels infected by Monday, doesn’t it?

You can’t fully relax on Sundays the way you can on Saturdays.

There’s a low-level tension in your body.
A background hum of anxiety.

And slowing down…well that’s something you’ve struggled with your entire life.

Because you’re a high performer

Successful.
Driven.
Responsible.
You get things done.

Yet every Sunday evening, and every Monday morning, there’s that familiar feeling creeping in.

That thought:
“If I didn’t have to do this… I’d be doing that instead.”

Your mind drifts….just for a second…to the dream you’ve had for years.

Then you catch yourself.

No.

Too much to do.

As always.

Meetings.

Appointments.
An endless to-do list that grows faster than you can shrink it.

You rewrite it.
Make it more “realistic”.
Shorter.

But the real list isn’t the one on your laptop.
It’s the one in your head.

And buried somewhere on that list is:
the holiday you keep postponing
the weekend away you never book
the life you’ll “get to later”

Because you’ve always been the responsible one, haven’t you?

Not the spontaneous one.

Not the one who responds to her deepest desires.

You remember that woman you worked with years ago.

The one who always booked weekends away with her husband.

What was her name again?

Your attention drifts back to the cup of tea in your hand.

Your handwritten list for Monday.

You notice the 11am meeting you scheduled on purpose.

Not 9am.
You were kind to yourself.

One of the small ways you manage your anxiety.

You take a breath.

Deep in.

Slow out.

Then you switch on your computer.

That fantasy of getting away….for the weekend, with your husband….or maybe even on your own ….You push it aside.
Again.
But for a few seconds, you let yourself FEEL it.
The lightness.

The space.

The freedom.

You smile.

You sigh.

And somehow, that tiny moment of escape helps you get through the rest of your day.
Until next Sunday.

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